"I can"

After discovering my personality type in my previous post,  I've been taking a step back to analyze myself to find out wether or not my results ring true. As a recap, I took the Myers-Briggs personality quiz and got the results "ENFP-T," a seemingly meaningless set of letters until you learn what each letter means. This quiz goes extremely in depth on the attributes of your personality, including the traits of your mind, energy, nature, tactics, and identity. If you want to learn more about this quiz and my results, refer back to my previous blog. I highly recommend taking the quiz, it provides you with a useful outside perspective of your personality and how you interact with yourself and others. This can give you a clear picture of your strengths and weaknesses.

One of the results from the personality quiz that struck me the most was under the "identity" portion, how fitting. The results yielded that I am 74% turbulent, compared to 26% assertive. This really resinated with me because I've always wanted to be perceived as strong and confident. However, discovering that I'm extremely turbulent has made those emotions stick out recently. I've been worked up in the typical 20-year-old-girl stressors of life; college, work and relationships. While dealing with these things, the feeling as if I'm not doing well enough and that I need to do better looms over my head. I know that this is just part of my personality and my lack of confidence, but why must I feel this way? As a turbulent person am I doomed to be unsure of myself forever?

Unfortunately, being confidence in oneself doesn't happen with a flick of a switch. And after scouring the internet looking through endless self confidence blogs, there isn't a clear path to it either. However, I've learned that being kind to yourself is crucial because it reflects how you feel about yourself. For example, if I do something wrong I'll joke around and often say things such as "I'm stupid." A seemingly harmless joke because it's about myself, however, if someone doubts themselves enough then they will start to believe it. This negative mindset that I've been stuck in could be the reason for my self doubting thoughts. The way we talk to ourselves matters. Instead of being so doubtful, I want to change my mindset to a more positive one where I treat myself better and say the words "I can." I found this quote from an unknown author that really inspired me to be more positive, it reads "you live the most of your life inside your head, make sure its a nice place to be." I hope this inspires you to take care of yourself, not only physically but mentally.